well its been a long as time since i posted a blog in here but here's and update for anybody who reads my blogs n shit that i used to talk to too me n katie broke up 2 or so months ago so now im single and lookin to mingle so to speak but meh just thought i would post an update ya know peace-J

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so fuckin pissed off and stressed... ok that little bit right there was from a couple of days ago all tho i still am stressed and have now become a little bit more depressed more than before and i still don't know why and it won't go away. maybe i don't want it to go away maybe i want it to stay who knows maybe i deserve to be depressed and stressed and down and not happy at all maybe i should just stop giving a fuck about everything xcept for k i got to improve in that note in my life big time i guess. u know every since my b-day i have been this way idk maybe since it got ruined kinda (not counting how i celebrated it with k b and m).idk whats going on in my life anymore it sure iz getting confused as fuck now a dayz. so i guess i should finally say whats been on my mind and the whole reason why i was gonna write this blog... during the weekened mark asked me some questions and said somethings about me being a good boyfriend. i couldn't remeber what i did for her in the past month or what she did for me in the past month that i ask to much from her and maybe its not equal so after that little session i have realized since then and still do that im a horrible boyfriend. i don't think he really likes me. and don't know if any of them like me really who knows i hope a job hires me soon otherwise i might get kick out

and then where and who do i fuckin turn 2. huh? answer me that motherfucker where do i go? unless i can get money but where the fuck do i find that if no job hires me. pray for ne y'all prey that a job hires me and i just kinda found out yesterday that brandon has been trying to break my and k up for a while and more than just a couple of times so im kinda pissed about that and hurt by him i feel kinda betrayed by him as well and he has just now lost some of my trust from it.. ... hey ok this happend a while ago almost like a month ago but some of it iz still goin on today so im gonna post this anyway.-J

that iz a question i have been pondering for a while but had forgoten till just last night went katie wrote a blog bout her and kristina and kristina saying she started drifting away since 7th grade and that really upset for the rest of that night i felt like shit and i started thinking and this iz what i was thinking.... who needs friends? that iz the question i am asking all of u who read this pleaze answer if u read this cuz i really need to know the answer. i mean who really needs friends sure they cheer u up and make u feel better but what about when they hurt u i mean in the long run they just end up leavin u there iz no true friend till the end cuz after school who iz really gonna call u or w/e who r really gonna stay friends after school? and sure if u r friends after school for how long? i mean eventually u r gonna split and u will no longer have friends.... look what iz the point to having firends? i think its way better to just have aquantinces than firend that way u don't get to close and u just know enough u know what u i'll take some of my friends for examples 1)todd we were friends maybe good ones but then u decide to do some stupid shit that i thought would be funny and but after it was done our friendship kinda went down the shitter and if i could take back what i did i would cuz i lost a good firend from some stupid shit i mean our friendship was ok after a while but now idk he calls me one of the biggest assholes and maybe he iz right but i wish we could still be friends like it was before the joke and for that im sorry i fucked up. example 2) katie latzke i know me and her god forbid it but yes there was a time when we were friends in the 6th grade we were friends then 7th we were kinda good friends then 8th we were kinda friends but then 9th grade hit and bam instint enimies then 10th grade i said some shit  and we were no longer firneds then last year i thought we were good u know on ok terms but nope and this year it went back and forth i'm trying to be nice but that bitch makes it damn near impossible sometimes i just want to kill that mafucker but im not stupid enought to do it and go ahead latzke show beaumaster this if u want but ur a fuckin bitch and i want to kill u sometimes and i hope u die go straight to hell and start sucking the devils dick. there if there was any kinda hope for us being on good terms im sure that did the trick to piss her off.3) brandon we went from friends to aquantinces jut like that just because he didn't like my g/f and didn't like that fact that i was an ass but i think we r both over that one. so which one do you think iz better friends or aquantinces?and i know some of my firned r probably gonna get pissed when they read this ppl like mike. but last night i said who needs friends i bet i'd be alot better off cuz its broken down like thie friends= stress, drama, hurtness, and other so no firend means no stress no drama no hurt no nothin ... firneds can't be trusted friends alot about u personal and non but what if u get ina fight wiht ur firend then they could easily use personal imformation against u or spread it around school or somthin by the way im listening to "my old freind" just thoguht i would tell u... but also friends can be a good thing they have ur back their there for u they listen when no one else will i have some pretty kick ass friends and i'm very gratful that i have them and i hope i took non of them for granted....like the title sez friends or aquantinces u make the call.. who needs friend? who need aquantinces? u answer that one as for me i think im just gonna take a break from people i need to be away from all of my friends right now for a little bit i just need a brake or somethin just to figure things out for myself... im sorry if this confuses u i will read all my replys but when im on aim don't im me unless k iz on and then im sure she will im u first and if u see me in the hall don't talk to me. pleaze don't think im dumpin all my friends cuz im not but i just need to be away from all of u for a lil while. i will let u all know when im done with my brake when i do it will be in a blog and pleaze don't get anrgy with me except for latzke FUCK THAT BITCH!!! lol she can get angry all she wants. anyway pleaze everyone answer my questions the best u can i would really aprreciate plus i need the answers that iz all i wanted to say ok im done see u all in a few bye.-J

ok so if u go to google and type in the name katie latzke the first thing to pop up is my mindsay blog cuz one time i bitched about her so now everytime u enter katie latzke on goggle it will pop on to mine i think it is so stupid anyway ok that was all i told my friend i would write another blog about katie to see if it pops up so that is y i am writing about this so there mike ha.